And it's not fair-why do I have to be so?
Oh I feel everything much more- much more than you ever
and it's too hard when I can't even catch your eye
so I can't send you messages
and at night I dream of reasons
that I can't let you go
but I don't know if it's time to crack through your walls so thick that I can't see past you
last summer wasn't enough for me
and now that winter comes the cold beats harder
and no one is left alone and I'm
offering you me right now-
take me I'm yours
and I won't have it any other way
so don't let fools be carried by
what I say because the night keeps looking our way
and you're not seeing what I'm missing 'cause I am missing you
I think that we should run as fast as we can into what we don't know- its time to let me in because I feel just fine.
Don't leave yet
it's still early and I haven't even said a word
and I'm hoping that I might upset
you by saying what I want to
'cause it's not like you don't know I've fallen for you
but it's in my head and that's
where you can't see it
and I thought that maybe if I had to bite the tips of my fingers I could stumble over words
tell you just how far before I hit the ground
and I'm the type to think of all the wrong things to say
and I will
shut myself up and I'll never come out-
I'll close all my doors and only show you the black spots where my eyes once were-
I can say this-
I can collect myself deep down and then come out punching
and ill scream out loud.
I said, "that boy's handsome"
and a little bit of
me wanted to be beautiful-
Carrie said, "It's hard to look in the mirror these days when everyone has everything you'd
There's just something about his smile He looks so nice,
I wish I had friends like that
be there for me, I wouldn't look bad
They wouldnt talk behind my back.
So now I've made the decision
to walk behind you in the dark for the rest of my life
I'll never show my face again
because it's too scarred and bloody to be enough
and I don't have the right stuff-
I have are the empty boxes to carry away your heart
and I think that tonight I will sneak into your house and I'll sing
songs and wake you up
and I'll take you blindfolded dancing onto bridges
and you'll say you don't to be with me
no one ever does and no one ever thinks of me that way
but I will even drive you home if you never let me forget about
and if you promise me that I'm good enough for someone 'cause I've got to be good enough for you and someday soon
I'll get it right
and then you'll see just how good I can be
so don't ask me about forever because right now I'm feeling
but there's got to be some place for me because if there isn't where will I go?
Will there be some place for
me and will you be waiting there for me?
If and when we get there please catch me before I crawl all the way home But
wont stop until you do.
Collision Three years and now I feel like completeness has set in
it's something to keep time with time
and I know it's not true that I can't keep on like this
'cause I know I feel
right and I don't think I miss a thing
and I remember when I heard that song sing,
"if the world doesn't understand
then the world has to learn"
and maybe that's true but not everyone has to-
when ten million people all believe in
the same thing how could they be wrong and what is sometimes?
Theirs a weight on my head but I know I feel right.
Three Miles Down
here I go again I'm stuck in this rut
and I'm not sure how to begin- should I tell you everything?
feeling out of luck so I won't see you soon
'cause I know it's too soon for you to see me-
if this is the last thing
you do just tell me that it's o.k. for me to have these feelings for you
and that it's normal to want to call you.
I'm dialing the phone and I'm letting it ring for hours and I'm pretending to hear your voice-
Why does my heart always
beat before yours does?
After a while you can make yourself believe in almost anything,so Im making myself believe in
Always Ten Feet Tall
So I said, "lets forget these days and just try to build some solid ground.
Maybe someday we could stand straight up
with our faces in the wind
and scream to the world."
We were at some boating dock...oh somewhere at the waterfront
staring out across the channel-
a steamer blared its horn
and I wished I could say everything right like "do you want
to go for a ride?"
I looked to your face and saw the sun reflecting off your skin and I breathed in water smells-
skyline filled with shipping yards and factories had me dreaming of waking up-
am I dreaming? is this really me? because
I've never felt so not lonely
and if this could be real right now then everyday for the rest of my life I will search
for moments full of you
but let's hope tomorrow won't cave in 'cause I'm looking for someone to change me
make me feel so tall- I always want to be this tall
'cause maybe I'll be original
and sometimes things you say just
make me think in different ways so this is my way of saying I could be the one who's dragged home at night away from all my
hopeless dreams- you and me will forge some future because we don't want to be waiting
And I grew up
on alcoholic evenings and slow jazz music to keep my heart beating
because after all that happens
in a dissolving family
the need for a song to sing me to sleep still rings true
and I always knew that there wasn't
glue strong enough to sew these roots together
and now that I've wasted too many years
and I've lost track of where
I have to dream at night of who I was and why after twenty years of marriage
I am what is left and I'd like
to go back now
and make myself up because I'd be a brick so I wouldn't feel
and I'd lift myself up and I'd throw myself
at this house
to break windows and smash walls
Just to keep time where it was and where it should be.
Seeing It This Way I never thought I could watch someone come apart from
the insides to outsides
but every day I see strings fall loose
and every day I see hope lost-
with all this complicated
I can't even get pass the thought of thinking
and wondering whether help or understanding rings truer
and I don't
know how to do anything anymore for you
but I know that you should stop this world spinning right this minute
take a look from higher up
and then you could realize just how broken your aim really is
so why don't you ask yourself
to show up sometimes?
why don't you stand up tall and kick yourself in the mouth
to remember and to get that burn
and scorch your stomach and bleed that passion lost
And dont forget what picked you up and dont forget to think
Hot Time In Delaware
Ever think we should try to re-establish that
connection that we made during last summer's days?
Maybe I should be subtle or maybe I should be more pure
but I think
we should talk about what we were going through
and I wonder what it would be like if we had
kept up that aversion
and maybe kept listing
all the people that we hated
but isn't it ironic how you still have ideals and I still have
and now I'm hoping that you'll change so we can see straight some day.
Houses & Billboards
that last Friday before we left for Mexico?
we kissed and nothing seemed to matter like Billie Holiday might sing
it rained and everything was going to be just fine-
it was like music-
and it makes me sad to know I had gotten into
something that I could not deal with
and I will sit in my room and sleep all day
and think up dreams like I am the
cutest kid in school or I could be crazy and sing about memories-
hey I remember when I sat on those steps watching the
chase the sky back until the world seemed like it would explode
and I could picture going up with it
be just how I'd like to go and I'd sing.
Every day seems the same to me
I sit around and think about how alone I feel
then I wind up
rather enjoying loneliness because it's the comfort of being sad-
sometimes it feels so right
and sometimes I'd like
to be around no one for ten straight years
but I know this feeling can't bring me places
and I know I'm losing lots
but to keep up means to get up and why does it have to be
the world keeps on changing while I just stay
I feel like being down doesn't mean enough to anyone anymore
and I guess the world has made emotion obsolete
and I don't think I feel the same 'cause after all
who says what happy really means?
Tonight I will redefine everything
and tomorrow I will start in on my better days
and to each their own definition of happiness
but no one ever reaches
it so I don't think I'll breathe that way
but happiness is when there's nowhere left to go
because in that state of
mind there is no state of self
so how was I supposed to know?
Sometimes, New Jersey l romance.
I called you up to see if maybe we could hang out
and I told you I was nervous
and feeling lonely
but I bit my lip and you said yes
and I thought of how beautiful the night would be
and I thought
maybe we could drive around talking about your town
or we could just stay at home and I could win over acting cool just
stay awake long enough to stop breathing
and I wonder how long it will take before I pass out drunk off night skies
lying on hills with wet grass below and blue black above-
I will carry all the weights tonight
'cause I keep remembering
the day that you said you might go crazy
if you spent one more minute with me and I just don't know-
is one more minute
going to kill you now?
Stop me before I say too much-
so now I've been alone and it's been going but tomorrow might
if I don't let it so don't forget the mornings that we spent deep inside out heads
staring at blank walls
'cause that's what counts
and I don't know but I'm trying to let you go
but I can't cut so well these strings I have
around my neck
and I'm trying to let you know that I'm doing this by myself-
so don't forget we sent letters to ourselves
and it was just to remember those days that we spent in our heads.
Do You What I Love The Most
Do you know what I love the most? Even suburbs would be o.k. With you beneath my sheets And the breeze in the window 'Cause
we will go there and ignore all our neighbours I think I'll bring you breakfast and play Johnny Cash on the stereo oooh I'll
sit in the lazy chair all day remembering the things you do So when you come home I'll jump up to kiss you and it will knock
you back You'll fall over our TV set I'll pick you up and dust you off Oh, Baby let's give it a go I'll kiss your thighs to
make you feel all right And then I will get closer to taste a little sweat Oh I think I'm rearing to go You're gonna get knocked
out and tied up in my trunk In ten years we'll go to Ohio and we'll steal Cadillac's for a living.
Take Our Cars Now
Don't you remember the last time we were speeding down this highway?
Anna slept in the back seat, dreaming in the autumn
We turned up the country radio.
I said, "if you want me just say so."
I slicked back my hair in the wind.
I told you I didn't want my picture taken but you snapped it anyway.
Now I guess you won't have trouble remembering
So I floored it and swerved around the lanes.
I kept wishing it were you instead of me behind the wheel
so maybe with my camera I could steal a shot of you and go home to put it in my room.
Maybe you'll never remember me.
Maybe my face will lose these scars, 'cause sometimes they keep me home at night where I duck under the covers and wince
when I see the light.